“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
God’s word said he knew me before I was born. He had a plan for me.
Which just makes me wonder what that looked like. Was I a sketch in his heart? Did he think, “I need her to be this way, act this way, look this way, be kind of stubborn, but ultimately really awesome – and she will be called Hope – and the plan that I have for her is going to be great!” Then sometime between Noah and March of 1988, He saw a need that only I could fulfill and released me into my mothers womb, a certain combination of two distinctly different people, to get the result of – me.
Or was my spirit active in heaven and God knew that it was me and I knew Him. And we like talked and joked around and stuff. And then He looking into a certain place within time and decided that is where I would go, for such a time as this?
Just one of those things, ya know?
These are things that keep me up at night people. It’s a scary place in my head.